I blocked out time in my work schedule to go get my mammogram…..fun right? But, there was now time in the day to do some other things like drop off the recycling, drop off the things that needed to be donated, run by the post office, call that place that is never open when I need it to be. To the point that the mammogram took a back seat to all the other things I had to do and any time off from working was negated by all the things I was busy rushing to and from. But I felt so productive in that time. Those 3 hours felt like I had gotten a whole day’s worth of things done and I was driving home feeling like I had seriously accomplished a mission.
…small things weigh on my mind in a way that work doesn’t,
Why would errands make me feel like I was getting more done than when I work all day? I’m not sure if it was the fact that I was getting things out of my house that needed to go, or if these small things weigh on my mind in a way that work doesn’t, but I was damn near euphoric with the good work I had done. It was seriously strange because I think I do incredible work when I spend an hour getting some serious things worked out with a client. I would think that being proficient in my chosen field would have more weight than errands.
I think I’ve started to take work for granted though. That’s my job. I do it from 8 to 4 every day of the week and that’s just expected. I don’t see getting a client seen, doing some great work with them and actually completing my paperwork as being particularly productive. I wonder if we all suffer from thinking that all that work we do at work, isn’t special? I can’t fit another client into that hour and a phone call and some other errands in when I’m working with a client. I can’t cram the hour full of things that are helpful to our daily life, but not necessary on that day.
I really got an endorphin rush from it in a way that I should probably get from exercising.
There was something about carving out that time to get those small things done that felt so good. I really got an endorphin rush from it in a way that I should probably try to get from exercising. I don’t call my husband and brag that I had a session where I did 10 sets of bilateral stimulation, hit them with a cognitive interweave and then found a brainspot in the hour we had so that it was the most incredible session with breakthroughs, but I certainly called him to tell him that I had hit the pharmacy, the grocery store and the car wash on my way to meet with the accountant and pick up a piece of furniture.
Why is that? I’m doing way more meaningful work in the session for me and the client, but something about checking multiple things off a list of to dos in an already full day was fulfilling. Maybe it would feel more productive in the work day if there was a little check mark getting ticked off every time I got something done. I think I won’t question it, just enjoy it for a second.